How appropriate to be thinking about the feeling of fear on Halloween. No matter how hard I try the list of things that fill me with terror continue to grow. Loving individuals sent positive thoughts while I was going through cancer treatment and the one above kept popping up over and over. I would never dream of calling myself a courageous person, but this quote made me rethink the concept.
We live in a scary world. Watch the news, read the paper, or chat with a neighbor and you are probably going to walk away a little shaken up. Darkness is all around us, therefore we have to make a conscious decision to seek what is good. Sitting across from a doctor telling me the horrors that were to come made my spirit tremble. Looking at an MRI of my precious child's brain and hearing he will face a lifetime of challenges filled me with anxiety and dread. Watching my cherished father leave this world left a scar on my heart that I doubted would ever heal. I cannot pretend these horrible events did not occur, but must I face each day waiting for the next nightmare to begin?
When I experience panic I have learned to stand firm in something that I hold in such high esteem that a shadow is cast over the fear. My faith and relationship with God allows me to work through my personal battles and discover the courage I desperately need. 2 Timothy 1:7 says...For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. I have learned that God's strength is made perfect through my weakness, therefore through Him I have what I need to get through the tough stuff. Some mornings I wake up and the heaviness sets in and I have to talk myself into feeling powerful, loved, and discriplined.
Next time you feel like you are in one of those horror movies where you are running wildly, screaming, and glancing behind you to see if the monster is gaining ground....take my advice...STOP! Even if you cannot get rid of the creepy feeling entirely, decide that you can find the courage to not just survive but to conquer.
Happy Halloween......
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