If you have ever noticed a piece of paper tumbling in the wind you can relate to how I am feeling these days. Lately, I have been drifting. Grief, change, and constant toil have left little time for reflection and recovery. Although much has been accomplished...I have lost sight of my center. What anchors you when the craziness of life threatens to blow you away? Where is your resting place when you are in need of a fresh outlook? In the midst of constant change, what is the one thing that remains?
I have spent the last 6 months working with the most wonderful group of people. I especially have bonded with two teachers on my team. I have thanked God daily for giving me such a special gift and blessing my life so richly with these new friendships. Last week, I had to leave the school and people that have become so dear to me. I have shed so many tears over the weekend. I was lucky enough to get another position, but have been acting like a spoiled child that has had to leave the toy store without a present. I wanted to stay at my old school! I wanted to be with these precious people that I have grown to love! My job had become the anchor that brought meaning to my days. Naturally, when it was taken away I became lost. Instead of preparing myself for the miracles that will come with my new adventure, I have been spending my days grieving the losses of yesterday. I have not just focused on the job, but decided to make a mental tally of ALL of the wrongs that I have experienced.
This blog serves as my wake up call...it is time to throw down the anchor and stand firm on the divine place where I am today. I know WHO is my protector and all the wind, rain, pain, loss, change, challenges...will never alter the path that He has for me. Are you in need of a protector?
The Lord protects you; The Lord is a shelter right by your side. The Lord will protect your coming and going both now and forever more.
Psalm 121
